So yes. I have food now. I have ramen and I will eat it eventually. Then I will do my reading homework so I can ace that quiz tomorrow, because I want to do well in at least ONE class, you know?
The breaking down is starting again. It happens when Rae isn't around for too long. I just really hope she comes back Wednesday. I miss her so much, and I miss the dog a LOT. I haven't talked to anyone (except S, to borrow her lighter for a couple days). My roommate N didn't seem to care whether we got to hang out or not so I left pretty quickly the last time I was at the dorm. I haven't seen V, and E isn't answering my texts again (we're on very good terms so it's probably her phone messing up again).
I hate being alone. But I hate being without Rae even more. If I had time to take care of the dog, then it would probably be much, much easier. I can't even go and visit him, or play with him at the landlords' place, or anything. Too much homework and it's not a short walk away.
I need to remember to get some Amp tomorrow. I'm good on cigarettes- I don't smoke much when I'm numb, just when I'm stressed out.
I miss her too bad to process it anymore I guess.
Eden.
The breaking down is starting again. It happens when Rae isn't around for too long. I just really hope she comes back Wednesday. I miss her so much, and I miss the dog a LOT. I haven't talked to anyone (except S, to borrow her lighter for a couple days). My roommate N didn't seem to care whether we got to hang out or not so I left pretty quickly the last time I was at the dorm. I haven't seen V, and E isn't answering my texts again (we're on very good terms so it's probably her phone messing up again).
I hate being alone. But I hate being without Rae even more. If I had time to take care of the dog, then it would probably be much, much easier. I can't even go and visit him, or play with him at the landlords' place, or anything. Too much homework and it's not a short walk away.
I need to remember to get some Amp tomorrow. I'm good on cigarettes- I don't smoke much when I'm numb, just when I'm stressed out.
I miss her too bad to process it anymore I guess.
Eden.
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