Only not really.
I don't know what I've been up to lately. I feel like since I stopped taking the Lamictal (and especially the Adderall...) I've been floating around from day to day, vaguely getting things done last-minute by sheer miracle and a stubborn desire for good grades. I don't know.
I got a lip ring. (Go me!) I've wanted one for damn well near 10 years now and I don't know HOW I'll tell my parents (or rather, what I'll say when they see it) but damnit, I am 22 years old and I wanted it. So I got it and I love it.
Rae and I are doing well, despite a few bumps caused by stress and mood swings. My BPD likes to rear its ugly head sometimes but we've learned a pretty effective tactic- starting over. "I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to start bitching at you about this-and-that-unrelated-thing, can we start the night over?" It doesn't work if you start yelling at your partner and refusing to admit you were wrong, and it doesn't fix everything, but it's been working for us because we seem to know when it's okay to just hit ctrl+z and rewrite the past hour or two.
Some interesting stuff happened today. I won't get into it but it's going to be an interesting few days.
I don't know what else to say. I miss Adderall. I miss getting shit done. I miss feeling on top of the world.
I miss Rae most of all. When she's around, everything -works-. But oh yes so she got a job today! I really do think things will be better now.
She's going for a makeover of sorts. She wants to cut her hair (I admit I will cry- she has the most beautiful hair... but she's saving me some.) and I know she will look amazingly sexy. <3 I feel like I've been pushing her to wear certain clothes and I didn't mean to. She just happens to look sexy and gorgeous in a dress. But she also looks like a vision from heaven in jeans and a tank top. I can't wait to go see her and make her model for me. I will draw so much. <3 Aaah I am hopelessly in love and happy about it! *lucky* Meanwhile, our forum (RUNIC) has come back from the dead! We need new members so please someone join in and contribute! We're aiming for "intelligent paranormal and supernatural discussion," including energy/psionics, ghosts, angels, and demons, religion, spellcraft, science, disbelief in all of the above... come see! Come see!
Eden.
I don't know what I've been up to lately. I feel like since I stopped taking the Lamictal (and especially the Adderall...) I've been floating around from day to day, vaguely getting things done last-minute by sheer miracle and a stubborn desire for good grades. I don't know.
I got a lip ring. (Go me!) I've wanted one for damn well near 10 years now and I don't know HOW I'll tell my parents (or rather, what I'll say when they see it) but damnit, I am 22 years old and I wanted it. So I got it and I love it.
Rae and I are doing well, despite a few bumps caused by stress and mood swings. My BPD likes to rear its ugly head sometimes but we've learned a pretty effective tactic- starting over. "I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to start bitching at you about this-and-that-unrelated-thing, can we start the night over?" It doesn't work if you start yelling at your partner and refusing to admit you were wrong, and it doesn't fix everything, but it's been working for us because we seem to know when it's okay to just hit ctrl+z and rewrite the past hour or two.
Some interesting stuff happened today. I won't get into it but it's going to be an interesting few days.
I don't know what else to say. I miss Adderall. I miss getting shit done. I miss feeling on top of the world.
I miss Rae most of all. When she's around, everything -works-. But oh yes so she got a job today! I really do think things will be better now.
She's going for a makeover of sorts. She wants to cut her hair (I admit I will cry- she has the most beautiful hair... but she's saving me some.) and I know she will look amazingly sexy. <3 I feel like I've been pushing her to wear certain clothes and I didn't mean to. She just happens to look sexy and gorgeous in a dress. But she also looks like a vision from heaven in jeans and a tank top. I can't wait to go see her and make her model for me. I will draw so much. <3 Aaah I am hopelessly in love and happy about it! *lucky* Meanwhile, our forum (RUNIC) has come back from the dead! We need new members so please someone join in and contribute! We're aiming for "intelligent paranormal and supernatural discussion," including energy/psionics, ghosts, angels, and demons, religion, spellcraft, science, disbelief in all of the above... come see! Come see!
Eden.
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