Took my last Adderall. I really wanted to save it for another few weeks but it is what it is, I suppose. 20-page paper and a 3-page paper, due Monday. Right now those are my top two priorities. Well, no, that's a lie, I ran out of cigarettes a few hours ago and Adderall makes me a chain-smoker, but that comes later.
I guess my ADD is worse than I thought. I sat in front of my laptop all day long, waking to sleeping, for the past few days and not even one sentence. It doesn't help that lately I've been hungry all the time- stress?- and I'm always tired. Always distracted.
Rae and I are really feeling the distance lately. I just don't understand why things can't work out... she had a place to live, a job. She was accepted into a college near mine. And then it's all different and she's moved back to her home state and if I'm not busy then she often is. Maybe other people get tired of Skype but we leave it running as long as we can, even if the other steps out for a while. It doesn't help that Rae's phone broke (and her laptop is deteriorating fast...). As soon as she starts at her new job (hooray!!) she can finally feel less trapped, I think- a working phone, a fixed (or new) laptop, her own place. School. I want her to meet people to hang out with. I want her to be happy.
Why can't I focus on this paper this is terrible.
Eden.
I guess my ADD is worse than I thought. I sat in front of my laptop all day long, waking to sleeping, for the past few days and not even one sentence. It doesn't help that lately I've been hungry all the time- stress?- and I'm always tired. Always distracted.
Rae and I are really feeling the distance lately. I just don't understand why things can't work out... she had a place to live, a job. She was accepted into a college near mine. And then it's all different and she's moved back to her home state and if I'm not busy then she often is. Maybe other people get tired of Skype but we leave it running as long as we can, even if the other steps out for a while. It doesn't help that Rae's phone broke (and her laptop is deteriorating fast...). As soon as she starts at her new job (hooray!!) she can finally feel less trapped, I think- a working phone, a fixed (or new) laptop, her own place. School. I want her to meet people to hang out with. I want her to be happy.
Why can't I focus on this paper this is terrible.
Eden.
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